Dreaming

I love to go camping in my travel trailer! I am not a “tent” camper, I am a “Hilton” camper according to my husband.   I know when I am due a trip.   I begin to  daydream of my favorite lake along with my favorite “spot” that I camp in.   I see my parents, who always goes with me, parked beside me.   I see my dad, who never meets a stranger, ambling around meeting new friends.   By the time he is through, which is about 10 a.m. (I didn’t know the world was turning until about then!) he has the history, game plan, and every person’s family tree in the campground.   It is really neat to listen to, actually!

We leave on Father’s Day. It will just be me this time.   My son and daughter have their jobs, and they hate to camp anyway.   My husband has to work, but it will be precious time spent with my mom and dad!

Today is melancholy for me.   I am not quite sure why.   When the house is full for too long, I look at my husband and say, “Let’s hit it! We need some “us” time!”   Then when the kids are gone I can feel the emptiness without their presence.  Oh, I can pretend my daughter is in her room and my son is just outside, but the emptiness is still there.   I am pathetic.   They will only be gone eight hours today and will be home all evening!   Never satisfied!!   I think that is going to be my next project on myself! I need to remember I am blessed and to be satisfied continually!!   I love my alone time, but two days of it is enough!   I have to face facts…I NEED a full house!   I NEED the ones I love to be near!    I NEED to learn to be content!!

Now that my “patheticness” is poured out to the entire world, I feel a bit better.   I need to get up and do something for someone.   That always gets my mind off of ME!   I have wanted to get Gracie a diamond collar and today may be the day to do that.   Who knows, I may amble around the mall and get everyone’s history, game plan and family tree!   Actually sounds pretty interesting! :)