I should know better than to write this now because I am peeved about something, but I am going to write it now anyway. I'll be bolder to speak the truth while I am in this mood!! Today, an opportunity came to someone (I will allow to remain nameless so they are not embarrassed) came knocking. Out of the blue, an opportunity of true generosity, employeement with great benefits and a future for furtherance and, almost immediately, this person said no. Keep me in my little place, doing my little things, with the few people I have contact with. Keep me in familiarity, instead of taking a step of courage and grabbing a deal NOBODY IN THEIR RIGHT MIND would pass up!! How many of us have said, "God, I don't understand. I am a tither and a giver. I follow all the rules! I do the best I possibly can, but yet I stay stuck here while everyone is getting blessed and ahead!" I have said these very things, too. I have thought these same thoughts. One day I decided to REALLY pray about it and see what God would say to me about it. This day He answered me. It wasn't God that wasn't bringing opportunity or blessing to me. I had had many ideas and "witty inventions" that would have increased the income of my family drastically!! But instead of moving forward, I talked myself out of it and let other's opinions supercede what God, Himself was telling me to do!! God had not been a respecter of persons and given to all and passed me by. I said no when I should have said, "Thank you for showing me that Father now, please, show me how!" How do I know I missed those opportunities? Because, I saw later where other people had done the very thing God showed me to do and they were making a killing!! I could have kicked myself at those points! We confess this confession, "God give me witty ideas and inventions.", yet when He does our mind tells us all the reasons that can't work. What if Abram had done that when God told him to leave his father's house and he would take him to a land He would show him and make him the father of many nations?? He set out, having NO idea where he was going, only that God would show him one step at a time! This caused Abraham to be a man after God's own heart. He blindly trusted Him and didn't "lean to his own understanding!" That is where we mess up so badly....we lean to our OWN reasoning; oh, and it sounds right and good!! Because of it, we fail to reach full potential in our lives and then we want to ask God why He didn't do for us what He did for others? HE DID! WE DIDN'T ACCEPT IT! We have nobody but ourselves to blame! I stayed in this town because great-grandmother did, grandmother did, and mother did. If they all did it, it must have been right! Well, maybe God told them to, but if He told me to move to a land He would show me and I didn't, I missed it! How important is obedience! One yes answer, or one no answer can change the course of an entire life! Don't make excuses for yourself because it takes you out of your comfort zone. I have heard people tell me one week God told them one thing, only to have them tell me the next He didn't really, they were just frustrated. This is dangerous, my friend!! Get honest with yourself, but more importantly, get honest with God!! Be quick to obey and stop blaming God for all your troubles when you fail to obey His voice! Sometimes solitude is a very good place to be. It makes us turn to God and GET REAL! There is a quote that is so true...it goes like this, "We are our own worst enemy!" Don't let that be the reflection of your life.
